I feel truly terrible this morning. on another forum that I have been involved in recently 3 different people’s have been posting deliberate lies about me. The last person who did this wrote a supposed to letter from me that I had sent privately which makes it clear that I’m a fundamentalist Christian and I am being evil toward him who isn’t a Xian.
Well you know that the last thing I am is a fundamentalist let alone a Christian. However the other 2 and their writings are not so easily see through. There is also no way I could contact anyone on that forum privately because our e-mail addresses are not published anywhere.
Yes I know I ought to just let it go and ignore these sick and twisted people but it has really pressed my buttons. If you have been reading my blog you know just how much I have suffered because of the lies of other people. you will know that I lost nearly 2 years of my life to psychiatric institutions because of the lies of other people. this morning I am so close to tears, I am shaking, and I just feel terribly bad.I know that this is what the writers intended and I hate the fact that I have given it to them, tho I am not writing this on that forum and it is not likely that they know about my blog.
I get so angry at myself for being so fucking sensitive. I feel ashamed of it. I’m a grown man and I can still be made to feel like a frightened little boy. Those of you who don’t understand what flashbacks are won’t understand the space I am in right now but the few who do will understand.
I am going to go through a swim and see if I can swim through this.